The Commitment

FROM THE AUTHOR

"I have a very vivid childhood memory of selecting boiled lollies in the confectionery store of a now defunct living history museum when in walked a costumed performer—the formidable town ‘doctor’. Tipping his top hat, the ‘doctor’ drew the handle of his cane around the store—he needed a volunteer for his next dentistry demonstration. You could have heard a pin drop. We’d all seen the ghastly Victorian instruments inside his ‘surgery’—it wasn’t just the children holding their collective breath in The Old Lolly Shoppe that morning.

Life’s magic is that, regardless of age, we all tumble head-first into fiction, whether the gates of storytelling come in the form of open-air museum turnstiles or the cover of a new release. Into The Commitment crucible went the following ingredients: memories of that mid-winter morning and a terrifying ‘doctor’, a dash of fauxmance and friends-to-lovers, a pinch of unrequited love that perhaps isn’t so unrequited after all, and one too many hours of research into Victorian candle-making. Oh, and if anybody has any questions about the evolution of the crinoline, you know where to find me."

—Virginia Hale

Prologue

Eight Years Earlier

In the back corner of the Victorian-style tearoom, the pages of the book fluttered under the whir of the revolving fan. Splaying a hand across the book, Lacey sighed lightly.

Regardless of the summer storm pelting the windows, the humidity was stifling. Not only were her shoulders scorched from performing as the showgirl on the hotel balcony the day before, but she’d been working the confectionary store since the living museum had opened that morning. Even at nine a.m., it had been sweltering. Each time the store emptied, she’d lifted her corded petticoat over the floor fan and almost sobbed in relief. How in the hell had the women who’d actually worked on the goldfields survived the 1850s in these horsehair crinolines? She shifted uncomfortably in her seat. Would she ever get used to wearing a corset? It was only her seventh day at Spring Creek, the living goldrush museum—she still had the rest of the summer to get through.

The tearoom door swung open. Lacey’s eyes shot up from the page. In the doorway, the executive director, Jen, dragged her stockyard boots against the mat, and Lacey’s heart pounded wildly against whalebone confines of her corset. As Jen reached up to yank her dark ponytail tight, Lacey’s sight dropped to her long, tanned legs, bare in khaki shorts. She isn’t in costume. She isn’t in drag.

“Andy!” Jen barked in the direction of the kitchen. “Look here!” She waved an arm between the counter and the door. “The floorboards are covered in slush the lunch crowd’s traipsed in! Mate, you really don’t have to wait for Judy to ask you to grab the mop and bucket every time it rains, you’re perfectly welcome to just go ahead and take the bloody initiative!”

Lacey’s breath quickened. Here she was: the real Jen. Jen without her hair hidden beneath the top hat, Jen without the costume, without the coat, without the cane. Lacey hadn’t expected her to be quite so…feminine. But trying to reconcile the woman who performed the Victorian doctor in drag each day with this woman by the door only made the attraction all the more consuming. When Lacey reached her mid-thirties, would she have the same unbridled confidence that Jen seemed to have at…thirty-four? Thirty-five? Her desire warred against itself—for the boss’s daughter to stay far, far away…and for the boss’s daughter to cross the room and fall into the seat at her table.

Lacey had had crushes on women before, but in all her twenty-four years, she had never felt physical attraction so acutely. Yesterday, Jen had stepped inside the confectionary store to tease two children about tooth decay, and a mere grin from Jen had left her light-headed. She wanted that rush again. Jen was a force of nature, bold as Annie Oakley, formidable as… Across the room, their eyes caught. Flushing with warmth, Lacey dropped her gaze back to the page.

Out of the corner of her eye, she watched as Jen slipped behind the bar. Reaching for a triangle of her ham and cheese sandwich, Lacey stole a quick glance at the service window. In the kitchen, Jen was talking with her mother—and Judy was looking out the window directly to the corner of the tearoom where Lacey sat alone. They’re talking about you… The revolving fan beat its breeze and the hairs stood on the back on her sunburnt shoulders. They’re pitying you. You’re sitting all alone on your lunch break—again—and they’re pitying you.

With a bottle of water and sandwich wrap, Jen was crossing the room and halted before Lacey’s table.

“Oh. Jen,” Lacey feigned surprise. “I—”

“Mind if I bother you for company again?”

Without marking her page, Lacey closed the hardback and pushed it to the edge of the table. “Y-you aren’t bothering me.”

“You sure? It’s the third day I’ve sat with you during your break. If you aren’t planning on getting a restraining order, I’d at least talk to HR.”

Mouth dry, Lacey reached for her lemonade. “I take it you’re HR?”

“Mum was right about what she said when she hired you—you are very clever.”

Lacey was bright red. She had to be bright red. There wasn’t a possibility on earth that she wasn’t bright red. But as Jen fell into the chair opposite, she was kind enough not to mention it.

As Jen peeled the plastic wrapping from her wrap, Lacey stole the opportunity to take her in. Had she ever seen eyes so blue? Under Lacey’s lips, would that jawline feel as sharp as it looked? Does she have a girlfriend? Lover? Partner? What did lesbians call their significant other? That’s if she’s actually into women. Lacey sucked her bottom lip between her teeth. Just because she wears drag doesn’t mean she’s gay…

Jen looked up. “So, Mum said you just had a costume fitting. She said your waist was too tiny for the showgirl corset, even when she laced you up like Scarlett O’Hara.”

Lacey laughed lightly. “That isn’t true.”

“No?”

“The corset has been fine for this week, but it’s not a good enough fit for next week when I’ll have to start cracking the stockwhip.”

“Well, we don’t want a nip slip in front of a crowd, do we?”

Grinning, Lacey bit her lip. “I think I’d just about up and die.”

Jen took a bite from her wrap. “You had your wig fitting too?”

She nodded.

“Itchy as all hell?”

“I’ll get used to it.”

“I think you’ll have to.” Jen covered her mouth as she chewed. “Hate to break it to you, but a blond showgirl isn’t very intimidating. You’re going to need that raven wig.”

A nervous laugh bubbled from Lacey’s lips. “Is that what makes you so intimidating? The fact that you’re a brunette?”

“There you have it, Lacey Reed—you’ve just unlocked my secret to ensuring staff are too petrified to dare take a sickie on a Friday before a long weekend.”

“I don’t take sickies unless I’m legitimately ill.”

“Mmm. Time will tell.” Jen winked.

Willing her blush to calm, Lacey took a bite of her sandwich.

“Well, now that your costume and wig are sorted, all you need to do is master the whip—and you’re already halfway there. Do you have time to hang back a little after work tonight? We could give it another practice?”

Another practice? At the memory of her first day at Spring Creek, she flushed. As part of her performance as the showgirl with a dislike of Spring Creek’s trooper, threatening the trooper with the stockwhip was a fundamental part of the act. Until last week, she hadn’t so much as held a stockwhip, let alone cracked one. So, on Monday, Jen had stayed back after work to, quite literally, show her the ropes. Ever since, she’d been able to think of little else than Jen with her white linen shirtsleeves rolled to her elbows, the shirt pulling across her back, the quick, practised flick of Jen’s wrist… “I can stay back. Definitely.”

“Fantastic.” Taking a swig of water, Jen grinned.

As she swallowed another bite, Lacey pressed fingers to her lips. “What?”

“I was watching you yesterday afternoon, when you were out there on the hotel balcony.”

“Y-you were?”

“You’re an excellent performer. Very confident. Commanding.”

Lacey wet her lips. “And I suppose you’re surprised because I’m so shy when I’m myself?”

“Well…” As Jen’s gaze darted from their table to the window and back again, it was clear that, for once, she didn’t quite know what to say. Suddenly, she looked up. “That book’s not Wuthering Heights.”

Their eyes locked. Lacey’s blood rushed cold. “What?”

Jen’s gaze brightened with amusement—and confusion. “Your book jacket…” Slipping a long finger under the edge of the cover, she flicked the novel open.

Under layers of tiered petticoats, Lacey’s knees locked together. Slowly, Jen pinched the jacket from the cover. The instant she exposed the cover beneath, her eyes widened.

Lacey’s heart hammered. “I know what you’re thinking, but I’m not a lesbian.”

With a tentative smile, Jen tilted her head. “No, of course you’re not. You just wrap Radclyffe Hall in Emily Brontë to…protect your books?”

A tingling sensation swept across Lacey’s face.

Jen sat forward. “Are you all right?”

Lacey nodded quickly.

“Are you sure? Do you need to talk about anything?”

Yes. Desperately. An ache grew in the back of her throat. “I…I barely know you,” she said softly.

Crossing her arms on the table, Jen craned her neck forward. “I don’t know about that. You’ve known me a week.”

Lacey dropped her gaze.

Jen ducked her head. “Do you have a boyfriend?”

She shook her head.

“What about a girlfriend?”

“No.” Face flaming, she looked over her shoulder.

Jen tilted her head. “What’s the matter?”

As she reached for the last triangle of her sandwich, her tongue grew leaden. “Nothing’s the matter.”

With Jen focused on her so intently, chewing was proving an impossibility. Had she ever felt so exposed? So…on display? You wanted her attention—now you definitely have it.

“Are you enjoying it?” Jen asked.

She almost choked on ham rind. “Excuse me?” Covering her mouth, she coughed as discreetly as possible.

“Hey, hey, take it easy, Mama Cass…”

Eyes watering, Lacey lunged for her lemonade. “Mama Cass?” she squeaked.

“Are you serious?” Jen’s brow furrowed as she watched her desperately down a mouthful. “How old are you?”

Setting the glass back on its coaster, she cleared her throat. “Twenty-four.”

“You don’t know Mama Cass? The Mamas and the Papas? She choked on a…Never mind. I’m obviously too old for you.”

You’re perfect for me.

“The Well of Loneliness,” Jen clarified, reaching out to dance her short fingernails on the Brontë cover. “I asked if you’re enjoying The Well of Loneliness.”

The heat returned to Lacey’s cheeks in full force. “I only just started it. I don’t really know what it’s about. I mean, I know what it’s about, I just don’t know the plot or…”

“Well,” Jen said, running her tongue along her teeth, “I read it when I was in high school. Not prescribed at school, obviously.” She winked again. “I loved it. One of my all-time favourites. I’ve been trying to get Tori to read it for years but anything historical just…” She made a sweeping gesture over her head. “She has absolutely no interest.”

Lacey seized the opportunity to change the conversation. “Who’s Tori?”

“My partner.”

Lacey’s stomach clenched. She’s involved with someone. “How long have you been together?”

“Seven years.” Her face lit up. “She’s four and a half months pregnant.”

Lacey forced a smile. How childlike she must have seemed to this older woman. This beautiful, confident woman who knew exactly who she was.

Jen rewrapped her half-eaten sandwich. “Anyway, I might leave you in peace. I have to get dressed and take over from Dad as the doctor.” She planted her hands on the table. At the proximity, Lacey’s eyes dropped to the table. Jen bent down, lowering her voice to ensure her words were for Lacey’s ears and Lacey’s alone. “Look,” Jen started, “I know it’s a small town, and I know people talk. But we’re in our own little world up here on the hill. Everyone’s family here at Spring Creek, and I have a good feeling you’re going to stick around—so that makes you family, too. So, if it helps any, just remember that the boss’s daughter wears drag every day and is good as married to a woman. If you want to read The Well of Loneliness on your lunch break, you go ahead and read The Well of Loneliness on your lunch break. Nobody here is going to gossip about you—or who you love—behind your back. I won’t have it.”

Summoning all her courage, she looked up. Jen’s electric blue eyes were intense with empathy.

“It’s okay to not know,” Jen whispered. “Gay or straight or anything else, we never know who we’re going to end up with.” As she tilted her head, her smile was brilliant. “That’s what makes life interesting, right?”

LezReview Books
I always enjoy Hale’s writing and this was no exception. This book grabs you and doesn’t want to let you go. If anything, I wish it would have been longer. I was involved with these characters and I wanted to keep reading their story. Also, the living museum idea was genius. In my opinion, Hale is four for four with her books and I think that is really impressive for someone with a newer writing career. I have not been disappointed by any of her books yet and I hope I never will. I love romance authors that are a little different from the norm and to me that fits Hale perfectly. I love her unique ideas and settings and it always makes me wonder what she could be writing for us next. If you are looking for an angsty slow-burn romance, this book is for you. 4.25 Stars.

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Meike V. - I’m a fan of Hale’s books, so reading this book was a no brainer for me. I like how she can create realistic flawed characters set in a very specific environment and atmosphere that always seems to be a bit different from most wlw books and this book is an excellent example of that. In short, another excellent addition to Hale’s list of novels, I easily recommend this if you’re looking for a well written angsty romance.

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Betty H. - The characters in this tale are very realistic. In fact this is probably one of the most realistic love stories I’ve read. While both mains are beautiful (especially in each other’s eyes), they have their very human flaws and idiosyncrasies. Jen has chronic medical problems that sometimes affect her sense of self-worth. Both Jen and Lacey have trust issues because of their individual pasts. Add in an age gap and financial disparity, and this potential relationship has some major hurdles to overcome. This novel really is about a couple learning that while love and friendship are very important, they are not enough.

I thoroughly enjoyed reading Jen and Lacey’s journey to form a lasting bond. I recommend this novel to all who love angsty love stories.

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Cheryl D. - I spent a good part of this book trying to look for cracks in the pavement. Was it really as good as I was feeling, or at some point was the mojo going to run out and shove me into a land of bland? I'm very happy to say there was no crack and there was no bland. This was perfectly balanced, weighted with vivid reality and challenges. I loved it.